2015 was a pretty shitty year.
And i’ve only just began recovering from it. But the reality is life has been a bit downhill since 2009 for me. It punched me so hard, with broken hearts, broken dreams, diseases, surgeries, huge debt and finally collapsing to abysmal depression spanning quite a few years.
Then 2015 took the challenge, it broke down my business, it finished tearing up my finances (and my mom’s, and my dad’s), sunk me to Mariana depths, it threatened to kill important people and then when we were sighing in relief, it did.
I get it now Bethesda, 8-year-olds should be immortal...
I grew up mostly estranged from my extended family, living 1600+ km’s away. but in my late teens I was reintroduced and It couldn’t have been more amazing, we are still separated by the same distance but always itching for the next time we’ll be around, for the time we’ll finally move back.
Then in my early twenties I was gifted with a few new sets of cousins, for the first time i wasn’t the youngest and had so much fun with them.
It was quite a silly accident, she was riding a bike in front of her house, she fell to the side and hit a rock.
I’m still trying to process this, even tho it happened back in September, but I guess i won’t truly understand until I walk through the front door of her house. Not being there was one of the worst parts, feels like you’re being denied a basic right. But even tho we could scramble the cash to go we were stuck in our city.
Lie is still taking it’s course but I’m starting to react again. I helped my dad solve one of the major issues consuming him, I’m off my meds, I’m back to drawing sem-regularly.
The most important thing now is figuring a course for my life, I wasted quite a bit of time, but i’m working on it.
I don’t usually share this sort of personal stuff, but there are a few folks out there that deserve to know why I was so inconsistent in my online presence, sorry and thanks to all of you that gave me some love in the latest years <3